Travels As A Sensitive 4

No longer in Paradise, however paradise is still within.

Am now in the big smoke. Traffic can be heard loudly outside my room, my hosts who I love dearly and are heart family can add to the noise by one who is an elder, liking the TV on even if they are not watching or in the lounge room (they get now to turn it down as I have been sneaking in and doing it hehe ) and the other listening to short stories with an AI monotone voice while she plays games on her phone.

Don’t get me wrong we have lovely hang out times, great laughs and great meals out and lots of chats, this is just in the laid back times at their home.

When we went out for great food the other day at a Japanese Restaurant the noise level of the people within it was off the charts. As a westerner and someone with a Misophonia sensitivity, it was sooo loud! Women talking at the top of their lungs, kids squealing and shouting. No floor covering to dull the sound. I wish I had brought my loop ear plugs with me so I could at least drown out some of the noise, but I didn’t bring them in my bag due to using them at night to drift off to sleep ( and when I wake I find that I have taken them out in my sleep and placed them perfectly beside each other, every single time ha!) I have now corrected that error and placed them in my bag every day when we go out.

The first five minutes in the restaurant, I could feel my irritation at the noise and then with focused intention while looking at the menu, breathed my spirit back into my body. As I feel that’s what often happens to me, I just fly out of myself trying to cope which is often a pattern for those who are sensitive.

I also notice that when I am with others, I have a tendency to lean into their energy because I am interested and without knowing merge a little too much. Another common tendency of us sensitive folk. You might understand this in another context as energetic co-dependence and which can manifest as a need to please.

When I see this inner craving arise in me I consciously call myself back to myself similar to what I did in the restaurant and when I have privacy be that on the toilet if need be I change the energy leak by doing a round or two of recapitulation. (For those who do not know of the technique, when I am in a quieter space within three weeks, I will upload a little video of me doing it and post it here so you can follow along.) I find its such a handy travelling tool.

In the situations of needing to please. I accept it, and turn within to my inner child (rather than identifying that I am the child) telling her she doesn’t need to do or behave in any way to be loved or accepted as I fully love and accept her just the way she is. For me that helps beyond any other technique. My nervous system calms instantly along with some soft but deliberate upper heart flat hand slow drum beat patting.

Weirdly though, I am coping a lot better with the noise than I thought I would. I guess its akin to mindfulness, acknowledging them like thoughts, clouds, cars, motorbikes and the like in that same narrative of passing by and the more I stay connected within myself, the less it invasive it feels to my spirit.

I am here for another 4 days and then on a night flight back to Australia, which I am trying not to moan inside my head about. I am one of those people who loathes trying to sleep sitting up and love my quality sleep.

When younger I used to make a deal with the person sitting next to me, be that on a train or a plane that I would happily take the floor underneath the chair and they could have the two chairs to sleep on. I’m short of stature so that helped as well. Sadly Im not that nimble any more, still flexible and bendy but not nimble enough to leap up and twist myself into a pretzel to standing position again and again.

My infinity pillow (which I now cannot live without as its a great support to my neck wherever I sleep no matter what pillow is provided and great on the window seat side of the plane and to put on the serving table in front to lean into) I also rub it like I do with my scarf through my hands with whatever soft sent that appeals to me that brings me comfort, so for the moment its the blue lotus. I have a very long haul flight to come later in July to the north part of the world, so better adapt to the sitting meditation position for sleep sooner rather than later.

Tip for the moment. Just remember that wherever you go, to make a regular concerted effort to call and breathe your life force and energy back to yourself, land it in your earth suit and then shine your light from your centre (wherever you intuitively feel that is) as a cleanser along with a sense of pure protection and when you can do a few rounds of recapitulation.

Blessings Always Odette

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