The Moment My Body Decided Otherwise

Sometimes things just don’t go according to plan. Call it Murphy’s law or a detour in the road, it happens. My body has always been a strong messenger for me and of late it couldn’t be more true. This time it stopped me in my tracks to the point of literally slamming me down into bed with a high fever and the dreaded debilitation Influenza A. Which I found is not just the flu, but the worst version of it.

I have had some body signals in other ways in the past 6 months and thought that I had overcome and managed them well. I guess in reality they were the tip of the iceberg. I didn’t see that I needed much more focused self care on every level.

I did everything I could to get back on track to fly to the second part of my planned journey but my body has been unbelievably defiant and as I sit here typing the day after I should have flown… I know I couldn’t have done it. The virus is out of my body but I am still incredibly weak and I’m guessing an old dose of chronic fatigue has come to pin my down and make me pay attention big time.

I went to visit some friends down south and within a few days I was bed ridden. I even took pharmaceutical anti virals knowing I had to get on a long haul flight. Not sure they did much to be honest. I had to face reality and cancel all my plans and rearrange everything at a huge cost even beyond trying to get it back on insurance. I have taken the message to heart and finally listened.

I am fortunate to have enough finances at this time in my life. So I have decided to put my health and spiritual wellbeing first and foremost and head to a familiar place in three days to recuperate near where I used to live. A place where I can lie in bed and look at the Pelicans gliding down the river and put my bodies and holistic needs at the forefront of my life.

I am also near a practitioner who I have complete trust in and who I know can bring my health back to its optimum. I will also do some deep diving on a shamanic level to see where my imbalances are and any attachments that are draining my energy. I need complete alone time to feel into all of that. So I will fill my cup from a deep place and clear any debris from within.

In a month I will be ready to head to my bucket list adventure to see the bears in British Columbia and have changed my original trip plans for England and Wales and instead will come back via Kyoto and Asia yet again. I have always wanted to see the ancient side of Japan and my heart is at home in South East Asia more than anywhere else in the world. I may even return to the same wonderful place I have just been in my initial travel posts.

I take nothing for granted. I am fortunate indeed. I had to learn yet again that no matter how strong my willpower is, my body is my ultimate compass. Am I disappointed? Absolutely, Am I angry with myself, to a degree yes. Was there anything I could have foreseen, in hindsight yes, to not go south to visit my friends. It’s a city that I have never liked and always nicked named Mordor. I couldn’t wait to get out. I felt as if I was being dragged into the underworld. My friends are wonderful but that place… some places are just not energetically healthy and that place for me is one of them.

There were a few travel anxiety dreams that I am used to but no stand out red flags. I did have a reading about 8 months ago and the reader who was highly intuitive and professional did say if I didn’t look after myself I would end up in hospital. I feel that if I had pushed myself to do the long haul trip, that would have been a terrible truth. I loath hospitals esp for the energetics at night which I pick up on very strongly.

This is yet another deep lesson in self care and that is I guess how I learn best. By experience. As I lie here on a couch outside in the fresh air at my brothers, feeling a tad sorry for myself, I know that I am better off and so much more fortunate that many in these times and again I take nothing for granted. Am I glad I am not sitting in a chair on a twenty four hour long haul flight to arrive at a place where I might end up with pneumonia, you bet I am.

I am a being that always finds the light in the darkness and will continue to do so. I will keep you updated from my place of restoration which you can see here.

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Blessings

Odette